Chapter 38.3: Step-Brother's Toy (15)
I believe that I do love you…
Gu MingYue almost burst out into a burst of mad laughter at these words. Love? Does Shen Rong truly know the meaning of love?
Because of his so-called ‘love’, he would plunder it wantonly from another without taking into account the wishes of others. He would act unscrupulously just to reach his own selfish goals, and his self-righteous acknowledgment was in fact, just pure arrogance.
Because of his so-called ‘love’, he was genuinely convinced that he was the only man who could provide her with a beautiful and worry-free happy life. And any other man that she chose was just an unwanted commitment or a prostitution job, so that she could survive in the real world as he did not think she was capable of making a living herself.
Because of his so-called ‘love’, be believed that he can hug a wife in one arm and a beauty in another.
Was Shen Rong’s brain truly well? It seemed as if the two of them had never lived in the same world, as their thinking and views had never been connected.
In fact, Shen Rong truly believed that Gu MingYu had lived with Song ZhenYi under a pseudonym was so that she would not have to endure the hardships of the cruel real world. Furthermore, the fact that she had not even revealed her real name to Song ZhenYi was definitely proof that she was not committed to that relationship, and the feelings and emotions she felt for him were certainly insignificant.
Never would he have guessed that Shen Yue was merely a skin that held Gu MingYue’s soul, and her willingness to share her real name with Song ZhenYi meant that she truly saw him as a partner.
“I’m sorry, but I do not like you, and I never will. Please release me.” Gu MingYue interrupted his self-deception brutally with her cold words, “It would be impossible for us to be together. You said you want me, but what about Zhao ChunRan?”
“Listen, Shen Rong, no matter which era we are in, a woman will never be willing to share her husband with another person. You should cherish what you have right now.”
Gu MingYue’s demeanor was sincere and she spoke in a narrative tone, while Shen Rong’s eyes flickered when he heard Zhao ChunRan’s name. However, over the years, he had finally realized that all he felt was an irresistible sense of responsibility to Zhao ChunRan, and he had an intense desire to protect her empathetic and innocent self.
This was entirely different from what he felt for Gu MingYue, which was why he had always been gentle towards Zhao ChunRan, as she was not able to provoke any complex emotional turmoil within him.
All of Shen Rong’s most intense and scorching feelings belonged to Gu MingYue, leaving only the remaining warmth and protection for Zhao ChunRan.
Even Shen Rong himself was not sure if he had ever seen Zhao ChunRan as his woman, or was it all just a craving to find the shadow of his biological mother from her…
No matter what, the outcome between him and Zhao ChunRan was already a fait accompli, and nothing could be changed, but still, Shen Rong had no intention of letting Gu MingYue go.
In fact, before calling for Gu MingYue’s kidnapping, he had already considered the emotional harm he might bring to Zhao ChunRan, but still, it did not stop him from going through with the sinister plan.
“You will learn to love me, Xiao Yue. I will make you fall in love with me to the point that you can no longer bear to leave me.” Shen Rong replied with a hoarse voice as he picked her up and threw her towards the enormous soft bed, before tying her slender wrists tightly against the bed poles with his belt.
He leaned down and kissed her passionately on her lips and tasting her thoroughly, before making his way down her neck and chest while he leisurely stripped off her clothes with his big hands so that he could run his hands over her smooth jaded white skin.
“Xiao Yue, I have missed you a lot.” He gasped softly, speaking words that the old Gu MingYue might’ve been delighted to hear four years ago, but right now, all she felt was a sense of intense disgust and indescribable misery.
Shen Rong observed her expressions as he spoke, however, her indifferent expressions pierced through his heart mercilessly.
Of course, he knew all along that his actions were wrong, but there was no going back. It was true that he hated her when they first met many years ago, however, without him realizing it, the hatred had changed into an indescribable fondness, which had only grown stronger as time passed.
The signs were so obvious and still, his foolish and arrogant self had not noticed it, or maybe he did, but he was subconsciously in denial.
And now, since the situation had reached a point of no return, he had no choice but to go through with it until the end and hope for the best…
Shen Rong rammed her deep and hard, as if the feeling of possessing her body would give comfort to his soul. At least, when they were in bed, it felt as if Gu MingYue truly belonged to him.
It did not matter that Gu MingYue do not love him now, as they would be together for the rest of her life, and she would have a long time to get used to him, and he would take his time to train her physical body to crave for his attention.
Since he had fallen and could no longer escape from this abyss of pain, he might as well drag Gu MingYue down with him.
In fact, Shen Rong already had plans to remove all of the obstacles that he faced.
He did not need anyone’s understanding, because he himself could no longer understand his own behavior anymore.
The will be the last of this arc! Hoorah!
And here’s a reminder for everyone to always be mindful of manipulative partners. They might not harm you physically, but emotional abuse is still abuse. A relationship should be relaxed and joyful (and maybe filled with some small quarrels when both partners have different views about something) but it should never make you feel like absolute shit. You’re wonderful, and never let anyone else make you feel otherwise!
I was unfortunate enough to be in one many years ago, and hell, super glad I managed to get away!
But back to the story, please like and comment if you enjoyed my translations!