Chapter 180: How It Hurts!
Chapter 180: How It Hurts!
Surprisingly, Sakura began to remember the past while ignoring the real problem. She went deep into childhood, told how much easier it was in those days and how easy it was with Naruto. How he was fooling around and behaving irresponsibly. All her attempts to stop his stupidity and, even quarrels, to which he did not react in any way. All this continued until this moment ...
Finally, Sakura smiled bitterly.
"I think he hates me.
`` Quit, it's not like that, '' Yamanaka looked at her friend with a grin.
"Naruto is not like that ... Although he has changed, I think he will forgive you if you apologize."
- Already apologized, - the girl lowered her head guiltily: - But he again said that I am ungrateful ... The fact of the matter is that I am very grateful! But ... He doesn't seem to hear me! He kept saying that I was pathetic ...
Ino paused and then sighed.
- Was he so wrong?
- Wh-what?
- Well, - Yamanaka smiled tightly: - I understand you Sakura, I even admire how you were able to achieve your goal out of a simple childhood love. In the end, you even managed to give birth to Sasuke, but did you really want that? My situation is different, but I'll tell you a secret ... I'm not happy with this ... Sai, perhaps not the same ... - with a sad smile, she stretched out a fragile palm and stroked the cheek of her closest friend:
"You gave him too much. I think Naruto is not angry that you are ungrateful, but rather that in the end you chose a person who completely ignores you and does not appreciate. Doesn't ... It pisses you off?
- I ... - Sakura's lips trembled, she could not contain the suffering in her voice and lowered her eyes: - I don't know ... I don't know!
- No, I think you know everything perfectly well, - Ino leaned over to her and whispered: - Isn't the child's crush gone? I don't think Sasuke is so guilty, rather, he does not look like a person who is generally capable of giving someone happiness ...
Sakura shuddered sharply, she could not come to terms with these words! Her angry gaze immediately turned to Yamanaka.
- This is not true! - her eyes turned red: - He's not like that!
- Eh, - Ino took a sip of sake and said relaxed: - You yourself understand everything, but you continue to be stubborn. It is not your quarrel with Naruto that worries you, but your relationship with Sasuke, or rather, its complete absence. But, I don't understand ... - the girl's face changed abruptly, she seemed to start to get angry:
- Why are you letting this go on ?! I don't know what Naruto told you, but I can't hold back anymore!
From Ino's serious tone, Sakura's shoulders sagged, she already had tears ...
- Yes, we both fell in love with a tough guy, but in fact he turned out to be not at all what we thought he was, am I wrong? Still, if you were really important to him, would he have avoided you for years ?! This is a simple fact of Sakura, that his mission, his true goal is more important than you and Sarada!
- Enough ... Enough! - the girl began to growl, her tears were pouring in all: - Enough already! Stop talking like Naruto! You're my friend, so why ...
Ino sadly lowered her eyes and exhaled bitterly:
- Sorry, I was silent before, but now I understand best of all that you should not deceive yourself. You cannot feel feelings forcibly, you can only be delusional and experience pain. Because all your words about "love" sound so ridiculous ... Sakura, I wish you only happiness and ...
- Enough! - the girl stopped crying, pursed her lips and looked at her friend with pain:
- I myself know ... But, what do you suggest me to do ?! What should I do with this ?!
A chill ran through her, she already felt that if she didn't stop right now, then hysterics could not be avoided, and therefore, she sobbed softly:
- It's too late ... I'll ... I'll go.
Without another word, Sakura disappeared in a gust of wind.
Left alone, Ino let out a long sigh and poured herself another cup of sake ...
- Silly ...
It was after everything that happened, wiping away the tears that had come, that Sakura returned home.
- Stupid!
She pounded the wall with her fist with rage, and then roared uncontrollably! Her whole world seemed to be bursting at the seams, her best friend and closest friend seemed to have conspired, and worst of all, deep down she could not challenge their words. All this pain just tore her heart ... Is she really that naive? Was Sasuke just using her? But what about Sarada then? Isn't she the very expression of their love?
How painful! How stiflingly painful ...
Shaking and sobbing on her knees, Sakura reached out to the nearest photo frame.
- S-sasuke ...
The faces depicted there did not seem to be close to each other at all. Of course, they were separated by the borders of the frame, and Sakura knew the reason better than anyone ...
Her hands shook involuntarily and the glass on the frame cracked as expected.
- Why ... - tears sprinkled the broken fragments ...
The kunoichi clenched her fists and shattered the photo completely, then pulled out a large photo of Sasuke. Of course, she or Sarada wasn't there ... Only the Akatsuki buddies. Young Sasuke was in the company of Jugo, Suigetsu and Karin. They all wore the same cloaks with scarlet clouds.
Lonely shots of little Sarada and Sakura herself rested among the shards, to the side. Now nothing separated them. But now they seemed to be as far apart as they had never been before.
"Why ...", clenching her teeth until crackling, Sakura's tears spilled non-stop on the picture Sasuke held in her hands. She was angry and sobbing at the same time ...
As they said, really, all her words about love are just naive dreams? Even these framed photos ... She tried to bring them closer, to make them one whole, but isn't this another naive attempt to do the impossible?
Perhaps she really all this time was mistaken and dreamed of something unreal ... Is it really all this, just self-deception?
Sakura continued to cry and the more she gave in to these painful feelings, so much tormenting her heart, the more doubts and fears took possession of her. At that moment, like a mockery or a defensive instinct, deep in her womb it pinched so hard that she gasped.
- H-aa! - Sakura clutched at her chest, unable to breathe! This had happened before ... The day she confessed to Naruto, trying to get him to give up trying to save Sasuke. When he rejected her, a similar feeling in the womb made it impossible for her to breathe! Her body seemed to torment her, over and over ...
The bosom trembled and gave pain all over her body, Sakura had no choice but to forget about her sadness and quickly find the only medicine in this house ... Last time she was saved by a couple of toys in both holes - she was going to turn it over again.
It is not clear why, but, she stopped crying, it seemed that all the sadness, like that day, simply disappeared, forcing her to forget herself in this dull sensation of pain ... Perhaps, in such a strange way, her body protected her mind from a breakdown, in the end after all, since childhood she had big mental problems.
So Sakura was in front of her daughter, dripping juices with a pair of vibrators in her tight holes. Fortunately, she managed to extinguish the pain only a moment before Sarada's arrival. That orgasm covered her with a terrible tremor and pain, so she fell to her knees ... As a result, everything finally ended ...