Is It Bad That the Main Character’s a Roleplayer?

Episode 313: Tell Me (7)

“We finally met.”

The moment I climbed the castle wall, I thought quietly in front of the man who blocked me. If it feels like the God of Timing is secretly trying to punish me, I wonder if that’s paranoia.

“That old bastard. “Let’s talk for a moment…”

“Please don’t interrupt.”

Deathbringer rushed out and tried to stop Daniel. However, he pushed the Deathbringer away in one go and looked straight at me.

This was true even though he had his hood pulled down so tightly that his hair color and face were not visible. He somehow found my eyes hidden behind the hood and glared at me.

“Or are you going to run away again?”

But his burning eyes were full of seething anger and sadness, something so deep that it was difficult to even recognize its form. “Ah…” Faust, who was hanging on my arm, lowered his head with a choking sound.

“…no.”

Also, because Faust reacted that way, I naturally gave that answer. Tap, tap, tap. It is still unknown who the limping figure coming from the other side belongs to.

“I already had a conversation to share with you.”

“you you…!”

However, a voice that was unfamiliar and difficult to identify because it was all hoarse called out to someone along with limping feet.

Could it be me? That thought occurred to me for a moment, but I didn’t bother to turn my head. If the object in front of me was an object and the feelings it had were emotions, I couldn’t take my eyes off of it.

“Soseongju…?”

However, the Deathbringer next to me is not like that. He was free to check out new characters to his heart’s content. Soseongju. I immediately understood who the hoarse voice was looking for.

“Lord Soseong, you are still welcome—”

“Let’s change seats.”

However, in my opinion, that is not what should be prioritized now. I felt a bit sorry for Deathbringer, who wanted to escape this situation, and Soseongju, who was curious about my identity, but that was the situation.

“You don’t want to be disturbed either.”

“…great.”

Even if I added all of their emotions, it wouldn’t be as good as the person standing in front of me right now, so in the end, this is the best.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”

Well… actually, considering Faust’s emotions, it might not be completely the best. It seems like you originally had a close relationship with Lord Soseong, so maybe it would be better to face that side first.

But unfortunately, I don’t have the right to change the order. The same goes for avoiding conversation for the sake of Faust.

The damage suffered by that side is too great to just blindly protect the child. If you think about it, I, who am only a third party, would be tempted to intervene carelessly.

“Wait a minute…”

“I have something to tell Lee. When I weigh the injustice I have done to this city and the grace I have bestowed upon it, I think I deserve to spend a little time denouncing it. “Are you of the same opinion?”

“Of course that’s possible, but….”

“Thank you for the clear answer.”

After thanking So Seong-ju with my mouth, I turned my foot slightly to change my seat. In the process, I noticed the tearful face of So Seong-ju and the fierce expression of the guard standing behind him, but it didn’t bother me too much.

Apart from eliminating the demon that attacked this city, that reaction was reasonable considering the danger I posed and the fact that I was tricked into entering the city in the beginning.

“Do you know a place where we can talk?”

Well, before it makes sense, the injury is quite deep, so it doesn’t feel threatening. I arranged the conversation location, completely ignoring the escort driver.

“…I do not know.”

“is it.”

Unfortunately, neither I nor Daniel knew the right place.

“…How about letting us use the watchtower over there? “It’s almost empty because there aren’t enough soldiers to guard it, so I think it’ll be okay for a little while.”

Then, the guard with fierce eyes suddenly spoke. So Seong-ju, who was only looking at me anxiously, started shaking.

“…If you wish, I can take the soldiers away for about 20 minutes. “We will continue the conversation, but under the condition that we maintain vigilance toward the evil region.”

However, contrary to his seemingly attentive appearance, he gave a quite reasonable answer as commander-in-chief. Rather than being a superior who mindlessly follows the advice of subordinates, he sets an example for a superior who reviews and approves in his own way.

“It is the right thing to do. Thank you for your permission.”

Therefore, Heretic Questioner Daniel bowed his head without complaint, and I also bowed lightly. The escort only then softened his gaze at my actions, which were not formal but showed at least a minimum of respect.

“egg plant.”

Anyway, I got the place. I stepped forward to chat with Daniel.

“I am Nari.”

The Deathbringer behind me grabbed my collar. “Oh.” It seems that he reflexively held on to the fact that he fell right after that. I glanced back at him.

“I will come back.”

I know that Deathbringer can’t help but feel anxious because he knows about the relationship between me and that man… but this is an issue that cannot be put off.

I lightly placed my hand on the Deathbringer’s shoulder and then followed Daniel, who had gone first. In that moment, perhaps because of an order, we saw two soldiers hurriedly coming down from the watchtower we were heading towards.

The watchtower is now completely empty.

plod trudge.

Daniel and I climbed the stairs of the watchtower without speaking to each other. Faust, still in my hand, didn’t even squeak anymore. The boy was curled up in a ball with his mouth covered, as if even breathing was a sin.

widely.

And finally, my feet reached the top of the watchtower. The sun stood overhead like a judge, illuminating us to reveal ourselves to the world.

“Tell me about it.”

Huh. The harsh wind blew my hood off.

“Tell me about that spark you said you used!!”

At the same time, it also messed up the hair of the enraged person. Between the fluttering bangs, clear tear stains were visible on the cheeks and dark, sunken eyes.

“…Why did you do that?”

“….”

“Why did you pretend not to know? Why were you being nice to them? Why on earth did you win Suits’ favor? Have you ever found it fun to be kind? Did you enjoy deceiving them and deceiving me?”

“That’s not it—”

“Then why! “Why did you do that!!”

“….”

“Why on earth did you do that…!”

“…I am.”

“Aunt Suits still wants to see you!!”

Wow. A piece of overflowing emotion fell to the floor. With that, my lips also completely closed. His emotions were not mine to deal with, but even so, words did not come out easily.

“They still believe in you…”

Is this because they empathize with his feelings?

“Why did you do that? Why on earth did you do that?…”

No, no. I wouldn’t know it under normal circumstances, but right now I can’t sympathize with him. Regardless of whether you understand it or not, you cannot afford to do so. I am heavy enough with my emotions.

“If you’re going to deceive, then deceive until the end. If you’re going to run away, don’t show up again. It will allow you to choose whether to trust with peace of mind or resent forever. Why why do you…”

But… But…

“Please say no again. “Tell me it wasn’t you who killed my parents and it wasn’t the devil you harbored.”

I associated my feelings with his feelings. I remembered an anger that was too great to be resented and forgotten.

Feelings that you can’t let out are the worst.

“I’m telling you right now that Suits didn’t trick you!”

Really… it’s just the worst.

“I am not your enemy.”

“…!”

But there is no way for me to prevent Daniel from feeling the worst. No, but I have no intention of choosing.

Even though I knew how cruel the words I was about to say would be to Daniel, I did not stop my tongue.

“That means…”

“I am not the real owner of this body, so I cannot be your enemy.”

“What is that…”

“I am a recently descended soul, Heretic Questioner. “I am the soul that the subject of this body forcibly dragged in because he was not confident that he could stop the devil that had arbitrarily taken up residence in his body on his own.”

You’re not a child and you have a supportive family, so it’ll be okay. Even if it’s not okay, get over it.

I arbitrarily imposed the facts that I had tailored. If Daniel found out about this, he would look at me like shit, but it was none of my business. It was difficult for me to take care of a grown adult as well. Yes, fuck, it’s really hard for me too.

“Your enemy? It could be this body. No, I think that is very likely. But I am not who I am now. As I am dealing with this body now, I am not at all involved in your resentment. “I was called in after the whole incident was over.”

Because it was so painful. Because I don’t want to carry this burden anymore.

I drew a line from the incident. Faust might have a harder time with this, but there was no other way. It’s too hard for me to even cover this up.

‘Do you resent me for not taking your side?’

“….”

At my question, the boy trembled and shook his head. It was a little pitiful, but then again, it just happened.

Why are you young?

『Why did you do that?』

The emotions I had barely suppressed came out. At this moment, I can’t even try to ignore it by changing the subject.

“What?”

While I was sinking like that, Daniel made a dumb sound for a moment.

“What bullshit…!”

It didn’t last very long. Of course. As someone whose parents were murdered, I can’t help but be upset if the (presumed) murderer says something like that.

“Are you saying that to me now because you have no excuse? “You’re still human?!”

Someone approached me with long strides and grabbed me by the collar. Maybe you should have asked me to put down my weapon and come back. I slowly lowered my eyelids, thinking about those thoughts in a daze.

“Are you still human?”

Ah, it seemed like I was fine until now, but I suddenly feel tired. I’m a little tired.

“Do you want to kill me?”

“That’s what you mean…!”

“I won’t stop it. “I have no right to stop your revenge.”

[Sleep a moment. Hey, Gretchen—]

“Just the Inquisitor.”

Suddenly, an unexploded bomb came to mind. If it had exploded, if the White Wind hadn’t tricked me, I would have been awake at home by now, right?

“…I don’t think the subject of this body killed your parents because he wanted to.”

It’s not that I don’t like being given another chance. I didn’t think this moment was such a bad thing since I was finally able to improve my relationships with the Inquisitor, Deathbringer, and other characters.

“What right do you have to mention them!”

“It’s just that if you fall asleep, your body will be taken over, and if you lose your mind in pain, the devil will wake up for you. If you let your guard down even a little, the surroundings will be set on fire, so if you try to die, you’ll only be giving the devil a chance.”

“What qualifications do you have—!”

“That’s why I think we just couldn’t stop it even though we wanted to.”

but. That’s just it. What if the bomb exploded? If by doing so I woke up from my reality. If only I could cry in your arms.

“I think it is a tragedy that happened because the child was too difficult to handle alone.”

“you…!”

The thought of how good it must have been never left the corner of my head.

“It probably won’t be visible to you, Heretic Questioner. But I can see it.”

Daniel shouted and pushed my body, causing me to fall down. Rather than resisting, I obeyed and spread my body out on the floor. Sreung. Daniel grabbed the sword.

“I feel so sorry for you that I see a child crying because he doesn’t think he has the right to even say sorry.”

“shut up!”

“I see a boy who could cut a ship open on his own if he wanted to.”

“Shut up!!”

Kang! A fiercely sharpened sword stuck next to my head. Some of the hair was cut off and thin blood lines were drawn on the ears. If I move a little to the side, my head might be cut off.

“…So you’re asking me to forgive?”

But the sword didn’t cut my throat in the end. I didn’t even lift it up and hit it again.

“Are you saying we should forgive the child, who had the misfortune of embracing a devil, because it was a tragedy that occurred because he was unable to control the devil?!”

Instead of the stopped blade, water droplets flowed and cut my cheek.

“I lost my parents and half my life disappeared that day…! And yet you are telling me to forgive that kid!”

It was a very cold and very heartbreaking blow.

“Do not forgive.”

But for me, it was a feeling and worry that had already passed once. Because the story has already been concluded and concluded.

“We don’t have to forgive.”

I thought quietly. I just muttered to the sunny sky beyond the sobbing young man.

“Just the Heretic Questioner. Even if you don’t forgive, acknowledge the fact that the child is atonement. Please show just that much generosity, no more, no less.”

Oh really.

“Unlike that child who was deprived of even the opportunity to become adults, weren’t we given the opportunity to become adults?”

I want to sleep comfortably on the sofa at home.