Chapter 233: Heroine Chapter: Let me hear your voice. [2/2]
Treated like a criminal, I was forbidden to remove her body as it was to serve as a reminder to everyone else. I spent every day accompanying her corpse, ignoring my training and classes.
My silent rebellion finally allowed me to give my nana a proper burial. As I carefully washed her body, all I could think of was the knight in her stories.
"Nana, I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. I am so sorry that I am too weak. The voices are getting louder, nana. They are telling me to kill everyone. Why couldn't Sir Knight save you? I don't think I can hold on much longer.
What the voices are saying is right!"
'You selfish bitch! Margaret died because of you!'
But I knew better, so I never followed them. Nana wanted me to be a righteous person despite my tendencies. I remembered hugging my Nana's body and sobbing.
"Nana, I'm so tired. Is there any point to all this? You and Jas are the only reason I even try to be good, and now you are gone. What if Sir Knight doesn't even exist? "
The following year I was sent to Syria. A few years later we were abandoned because we were Formless. Still, we tried our best, but eventually Jas was bitten by a Chuckie and I found myself surrounded with no strength left to defend myself.
"Nana, I give up. This could be my end," I whispered in a quiet voice.
'Just let go of your weapon and die! No one would even miss you!'
Although I fought my best, my injuries made combat extremely difficult. In what I assumed to be my final moments I found myself begging a person from my imagination.
"Sir Knight, if you are out there, save me. I need you. Praise me. Worry about my safety. Tell me my life matters. Please.
I can't hold on much longer. Please let me hear your voice," my own words were barely audible due to exhaustion.
It was when my heart almost surrendered that I heard him for the first time.
"Let's start with the little shits around her then."
Unsure of what I was listening to at first, I ignored the man's voice. But like a hero from my fairy tales, he came to my rescue.
The man did so by brutally kicking a Chuckie and then shooting it in the head.
As far as knights go, he was the worst. Vulgar, violent, without an ounce of chivalry.
But throughout the night he kept saying the things I wanted to hear. What I thought would be the worst day of my life, turned out to be the day I met my darling.
The voices that seemed to get louder after I gained {Listen} were silent when I was near him. Wanting to get closer to him, I tried my best.
I had assumed that if I acted bubbly and cheerful it would be enough. Guys like that, right? then I tried clinging to him. Neither worked.
Every time John showered me with attention and praise, my whole body felt bliss. When I heard how worried he was after Jas and I used {Soul Breakers}, I savored every second. I delayed my rewind and enjoyed his attention.
I even showed him my naked body, but still, he would treat me like all the others.
The Sirens, including myself, all have one wish at this moment. To get closer to the one we adored. But nothing seemed to work. Skinship even seemed to backfire on some occasions.
"None of them, they are my allies, nothing more. I will bear the punishment for the murders. I am fine with losing my rewards."
The despair the Sirens felt that time was palpable. As if our hopes had been mercilessly shattered. I remembered being quite upset by my darling's words as well.
'You see? He doesn't even know you're alive! Just like your parents! Just kill yourself already!'
My brief daydream was interrupted when Aki gently tugged at my hand.
"Benelli-san, the group is moving. Let's go. We don't want to be late to meet the master's family."
'Kill her. She tried to hurt what is yours!'
Ignoring the voice, I thanked the Japanese beauty.
"Ah, right. Grazie Aki."
As we walked through the streets, my ears burned from the gossip surrounding our group.
"Damn, this group is so fine I can't even pick!"
"Dawg look at the tits on the Latina! Such colossal badonkers on a small frame!"
"Dude, the Chink is similarly stacked. I wonder how she tastes."
"Wow! Now THATS where its at! Super model proportions and a black womans ass!"
'Kill them all!'
Not everyone was vulgar. Some just expressed admiration.
"Pretty!"
"Are they influencers or something?"
'Rip their bodies apart!'
Others were just plain weird.
"Thats one huge bitch!"
"I want the blue-haired one to step on me."
"I wonder if the little one is legal?"
'Gut them and let their blood drench the ground!'
Because I had super hearing, such disgusting talk became part of my norm. You would be surprised at the things people say out loud when they thought no one was listening.
Ignoring the peanut gallery, we walked. Eventually we introduced ourselves to Darling's family as his co-workers. I grew envious of the Simmons family's harmonious relationship.
Was this what a normal family should have looked like?
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'Kill them all. Why should they be happy when you are unhappy?'
Father and mother-in-law were so adorable together. Just being around them made the world seem like a nice place. Whenever they showed affection to each other, it was as if only the two of them existed.
Free for all the noise, all the misery, all the scheming. I wonder if it would be possible for me to have something like that.
'Do you think you deserve to have something like that? You are a filthy whore! A murderer! You deserve to rot in hell!'
Sometimes I would wonder why I was even born. My entire life was wasted on reapers, and yet I was thrown away. What was it all even for?
Conflicted, I tried to drown out the noise by playing with Alana and Bless, Darling's adopted sisters. As I struggled with my question, I finally heard Darling's car pull up to the driveway.
He got out with a big smile as he looked at us one by one. When I saw his eyes full of affection, I remembered his words during the recruitment. Something I had longed for most of my life.
"The dangers aside, you were amazing Jo. I was so relieved you are okay. Well done."
When I saw the face of the man I loved, I noticed that the bad voices were gone, and the world was completely silent.
"Hi everyone, I am back. I missed you all dearly," John said with a love-struck face.
In this space, only darling and I existed. My heart hammered loudly in my chest as a single thought echoed in my mind.
'Nana, you were right. I'm so glad I didn't give up.'