Chapter 45:
Love him, so feel inferior, love him, hope he can have better, he is really good, she is not worthy of him, she is too Inferiority, all she can do is to escape from him and escape far away.
But no matter how she escapes, she can't escape, or in his encirclement.
She used to paint herself as a prisoner. She thought she would be locked in this prison forever. She was alone in her own darkness and didn't want anyone to come in and bother. But one day she found out that Yi Zeyan had come in. He came in and brought a light to illuminate the deep darkness in front of him.
He took her hand, walked all the way, and finally took her out of the dark dungeon.
She once wanted to be a bad person. When her kindness was trampled again and again, she felt that being a bad person would make her life easier when she was not hurt enough.
So she discarded her goodness and became cruel.
However, after all, she could not become an absolute bad person. She could not do the absolute cruelty to Yi Zeyan. Because of his existence, she still had a kind of goodwill in her heart.
This kindness was finally awakened by him, and she finally recognized herself.
Lin Qingqing, with Yi Zeyan, you can't be a bad person in this life.
She used it for a long time on this trip, the weather was very cold, but her heart was transparent, she figured it out, she had all the things she had figured out, and she would not travel alone anymore.
The weather on her day was very good. Yi Zeyan and her children were not at home. She climbed to the attic and sat on the roof of the attic. The view was wide and the courtyard of the villa could be seen.
About a year ago, they moved home and moved to the villa area, where they liked the grapes and strawberries they liked.
She saw the car coming in from the door, and then Yi Zeyan and Xiaoyuan got off the bus.
Obuchi has gone to kindergarten. Although she has avoided him in the past few years, she has watched him grow up silently. He is very embarrassed and always sits in a place far away from her to tell her stories.
She looked at his innocent smile, and still had time, and now he loves him, and he still has time.
Obuchi came over and soon found her sitting on the top of the building. Yi Zeyan next to him saw her, but saw the smile on Yi Zeyans face suddenly stiffened, then he ran into the door, not a while. It appears on the roof. Lin Qingqing, who was sitting on the roof of the attic, and he was half a floor away, Yi Zeyan walked slowly and cautiously rushed to her: "Where do you climb? Do you hurry up."
Lin Qingqing did not know why he was such an expression. Did he think she was going to commit suicide here?
Yi Zeyan reached out to her. "Come down, have something to say."
Lin Qingqing looked at the man in front of him a little speechless, but she was afraid that he was worried, but she did not explain so much. She got up and came to this side, but at the moment she was thinking about this man in front of her. For so many days of travel, she already wanted to understand. Now, she finally got out of her own inferiority and finally forced herself to become a bad person. She wanted to be with him.
She wants to be a good person for him, even if it is difficult, even if it is very long, but she wants to give it a try.
She missed him very much, she really missed him, and she didn't know that the wound on his head was good. When she saw him, her eyes could not help but focus on his face.
In this way, she didn't notice the foot. The top of the attic was built into a small bungalow, so it was not very dangerous to stand on it. It was just that she didn't pay attention to her feet. When she jumped, she slipped and she slipped. If you don't stabilize your body, you will fall directly below.
Yi Zeyans eyes were fast, and she hurriedly reached out to catch her, but the action was a little bit worse. She took it out of his hand and fell on the ground and rolled a few times. When she stopped, her head hit a flower pot on the top of the building, probably There was a mouth, and blood suddenly flowed from the top of the head.
Yi Zeyan rushed over and saw that he was scared when he was bleeding on his head. He reached out and helped her, but suddenly he shook his god, and suddenly sat on the ground and coughed a few times, spitting out a blood.
When I bumped into the head, Lin Qingqings head was a little dizzy. She was very worried when she saw him vomiting. She wanted to ask him what happened, but she gradually blurred her eyes. She heard him call her a few times, then she lost. awareness.
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In the courtyard behind the hospital, there is a plum, and the plum blossoms are blooming. The scent is coming. Lin Qingqing stands under the tree of the plum tree, and his fingers touch the flower bones that are to be placed.
Yi Zeyan stayed at the bedside these days. He went out to make a phone call early this morning. After he came back, he saw no figure in the hospital bed. Why didn't she stay in bed? Without his permission, no one dares to move her, is she awake?
Yi Zeyan was excited inside, but there was also a kind of worry. Yi Zeyan went to the nurse on duty. The nurse told her that she saw Mrs. Yi going to the backyard of the hospital. Yi Zeyan hurried to the backyard.
After walking through a winding corridor, he really saw her standing in the yard, and Yi Zeyan finally breathed a sigh of relief.
"The weather is so cold, how come out wearing that little clothes?"
Lin Qingqing heard the voice turning to look at it, the man came slowly to her, and his slight brows worried. Lin Qingqing looked at him, and the past scene was played back in his mind, a sour feeling on the nose.
This man is her favorite, and she is the most owed.
Before she lost her memory, she thought about accepting his kindness with him, but her heart was awkward. She experienced so many injuries to him. Can he really accept her? Can they really get together?
But after so many days of getting along, she understood that they really can be loved. He can really stay with her regardless of the past. As long as she is willing to step ahead in front of him, he can cross the ninety-nine steps.
Yi Zeyan... She really thinks he is stupid.
He stepped forward and took off his coat and put it on her. He asked, "Is it better? Is there any discomfort?"
Lin Qingqing shook his head. "No, it's all good."
"Go ahead, let me check it out for you."
"it is good."
When Lin Qingqing went in with him, the doctor gave her another check. Except for the skin injury on the head, it was not good. Others had no major problems.
Since there is no big problem, Lin Qingqing does not want to stay in the hospital any more, and let Yi Zeyan give her a discharge.
When the two men came out of the hospital building, Lin Qingqing saw that someone was stopped at the gate. When the person saw the two, they suddenly pushed the two of them away and ran in.
She ran close to Lin Qingqing to see her look.
Lu Wenqian, but how did Lu Wenqian become like this?
Every time Lu Wenqian appears in front of people, it is full of radiance. There is a kind of exquisiteness and superiority in the whole body. It makes people know that this person must be a top-ranking socialite who is born and beautiful.
But now, she saw her hair styling, plain face, the clothes on her body are also crumpled, it seems that many days have not changed.
She ran over and slammed down in front of Yi Zeyan. She cried a pair of eyes and her eyes were full of despair.
"Where did you get my brother, did you give it back to me? I listened to you, I will never make a fuss again, you will return it to me and give it back to me!"
To be honest, if I don't look carefully, she really didn't recognize that this person is Lu Wenqian, this spoiled young lady, even Yi Zeyan's mother, she is not in her eyes, she is always a high-spirited At the moment, but she was kneeling in front of Yi Zeyan, completely without the arrogance of her past, she was so whispered, every word with a pleading.
Yi Zeyan looked at her, but her eyes were not half-pity. "I have already warned you, but you have not listened. I know why today, you should know me. I will not change the things I decided."
Lu Wenqian's tears continued to flow down, and her voice was crying. "Is my brother dead? You told me, is my brother dead? Yi Zeyan, I only have a brother, can you give me your brother?" Only he is."
Yi Zeyan was not moving, Lu Wenqian went to Lin Qingqing and she continued to squat on the ground. "I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong." Even after three heads, Lu Wenqian hugged Lin Qingqing's leg. "Ze Yan, he listens to you the most. You help me to ask him if he is good. I really know that I am wrong. I will never do anything to hurt you. Can you ask me for him?"
Lu Wenqian became like this. Lin Qingqing was really surprised. Her change was really too big. Before that, she was still the unscrupulous way to achieve her goal, colluding with her brother to deal with her, and she was not afraid of the big lady. I was so embarrassed that I completely ignored my dignity and asked her.
What happened during the few days of her coma.
Yi Zeyan indicated that the bodyguards pulled her away, and the bodyguards pulled Lu Wenqian forward. Yi Zeyan said again: "Your brother will not come back again. Everyone must pay for her mistakes. You made a mistake. This is the punishment you should be subjected to."
"Don't! Don't! Yi Zeyan don't! Return your brother to me, return my brother to me, I promise not to appear here again, I will go far with him, you will return it to me! give me!"
She said so much that she was so angry that she couldnt breathe.
"I told you about it, let you share a point, you don't listen to advice, I gave you a chance, don't you?"
After Yi Zeyan finished, and Lin Qingqing left, the two gradually drifted away, but Lu Wenqian behind him still cried, pleading, and screaming.
On the plane, Lin Qingqing asked him: "Where did Lu Xiuyuan go?"
"do not know."
"..."
"I really don't know, I only know that he won't be back here again."
Lin Qingqing did not ask more.
They were sitting on Yi Zeyans private plane. They were both in the luxurious and spacious cabin. They were very quiet. Lin Qingqing held his hand and leaned on him. She didnt want to manage anything, as long as he was with her. Just fine.
The two first went to the sister to pick up Obuchi. When they arrived at the Peace Hotel, it was afternoon. There was no meal. There was no one in the store. The sister sat on the side and repaired the cross-stitch. Obuchi sat in a chair and held a cup of tea. .
The chair is very big, and the little one looks like a little guy. He sits in the right position at the door. He sees the two people coming in at a glance. He sees the mom and dad, the little guy is happy, his eyes are bright, and he is small. Short legs ran over.
Lin Qingqing went up and picked him up. The little guy's little arm licked his neck and sweetly shouted, "Mom."
When forgetting everything, Lin Qingqing can love him with no hesitation, but with memories, he remembers the feelings he built with him when he was with him, thinking about the pain at the time of production, thinking that he was very small when he was very small. Looking at the way of drinking milk, thinking about her cold treatment for him in recent years.
At the moment, my heart was heavy and heavy, and she wanted to cry when she smelled him.
Lin Qingqing did not cry when she held tears. He took him for a while and put him down. Lin Zhenzhen also stepped forward and asked, "How come this time for so long?" She saw a piece of gauze on her head and asked: "injured?"
Obuchi also saw the injury on his mother's head. A pair of big eyes looked worried at her. Lin Qingqing licked his little face and said: "There was a bit of skin."
Lin Zhenzhen breathed a sigh of relief.
Lin Qingqing urged Yi Ze to extend: "You and Xiaoyuan are waiting for me for a while downstairs. I spoke to my sister."
"Good." Yi Zeyan did not ask much.
Lin Qingqing and Lin Zhenzhen went upstairs, but Lin Zhenzhen was still worried and asked: "What is the injury on your head?"
"What is really nothing is skin trauma."
"How do you get it?"
"I'm not careful."
"..." Lin Zhenzhen did not ask again, "What do you want to tell me?"
Lin Qingqing bowed his head and pondered for a while. "In fact, I always have a question. Why did I be here when I woke up. Isnt Zhe and I are husband and wife? I woke up even if I was not in the hospital. Why is it here at the extended home?"
"How do you want to ask this?"
"I am curious."
Lin Zhenzhen avoided her gaze and said, "You missed me, so I came back to play for a few days, accidentally fell to the end, and wake up is of course here."
Lin Qingqing knows that her sister is cheating on her. After she lost her memory, she and Yi Zeyan concealed a lot of very important things, just like they never told her that her vocal cord injury was because she went to the fire to save people and did not tell. She and Yi Zeyan had a relationship because they were prescribed medicine.
She suspected that they would not tell her, probably because they were afraid that these things touched her memories, because these two things are the cause of her distorted character. They didn't want her to think of the past, because everything that was experienced in the past was too heavy and painful for her.
"You don't have to lie to me anymore, I think about it."
Lin Qingqing said that she was understated, but when she heard her, Lin Zhenzhen was obviously shocked. She suddenly turned her head and looked at her. After a while, she said, "You said you remembered?"
"Well, I remembered."
Lin Zhenzhen took her shoulder and looked worried. "You...all right?"
Lin Qingqing smiled at her. "I'm fine, I just have something to know, so ask you."
"Ze Yan knows what you think of?"
"he does not know."
"..."
Lin Zhenzhen did not speak. She frowned and walked in the same place for a while, and asked her: "Don't you tell him?"
"Not planning for the time being."
Lin Zhenzhen sighed heavily and sat down on the chair. "At the time, your head was injured. The doctor checked that you didn't have any serious problems but still remained unconscious. Ze Yan thought you were going to commit suicide. He was afraid that you would wake up. I can't think of it, so he decided to divorce you at that time. Then I thought that you have nothing to do, let me bring you back directly. When you wake up, I will take the divorce agreement and sign it. He thinks you wake up to see it. I am not happy at that home."
Lin Qingqing nodded, almost as much as she guessed.
"I remember that he seemed to vomit blood after I fell. Didn't he have any problems?"
"The doctor said that it is anxious to attack and lead to vomiting blood."
Anxious to attack? Lin Qingqing smiled bitterly, and she seemed to be mad at him on weekdays.
What did the doctor say at the time? The problem is not big?
Lin Zhenzhen said: "At that time, he was all on your heart, but I still advised him to do the inspection. Everything was checked. The problem was not big. The doctor gave the medicine and there was no problem afterwards."
Upon hearing this, Lin Qingqing breathed a sigh of relief.
After Lin Qingqing came downstairs, she and the father and son took the car back together. Yi Zeyan did not ask her what she said to her sister along the way, and Lin Qingqing also performed very calmly, no different from the usual day.
After arriving home, Yi Beiyuan took a storybook and went out to Qinglin Qingdao: "Mom has been away for many days. The story I told last time has not been finished. Can I tell my mother?"
Lin Qingqing nodded. "Okay."
Lin Qingqing sat on the carpet, Yi Beiyuan's children took out his story book, sat cross-legged before her, opened the pages of the book, and pointed the words on the book one by one with their fingers.
Obuchi was very early, and he would recognize some ordinary words.
"Yes, one, day, one, only, small, fox, raccoon..."
One word and one word, not very smooth read out.
He used to like this before, sitting on the side or telling her story, or playing with his blocks, knowing that his mother doesn't like him close, he is not close, but still wants to stay with his mother, just one People sitting in a long distance.
At that time, she was lying on the bed with her back to him, listening to him telling a story he told her in a word and a word.
"Isn't Owl doing well enough, why doesn't mother like Obuchi?"
He once asked her like this. On that day of her birthday, she personally made a small gift for her, she was full of mischief, but told him that he would not do this for her in the future, and then he asked.
The heart is full of shackles, and the heart seems to be squatting by one hand, and it hurts her uncomfortable.
Too many feelings suddenly came up. She didn't hold back. She reached up and lifted him up and let him sit on his lap. As the Obuchi was unknown, he told her, "Mom, I haven't finished reading yet."
"It doesn't matter, read it later."
He heard her voice change and asked her: "What happened to my mother?"
She hugged him and kissed his face, tears rolling down.
"Do you know Xiaoyuan, when my mother just gave birth to you, my heart is really happy, I actually gave birth to such a lovely child. At that time, you were so small and tender, and my mother suddenly wanted to become a warrior. A warrior who can protect Obuchi. Mom wants to protect you in his arms all the time. Mom really loves you, really loves. But later, my mother experienced some things, my mother was stimulated, my mother became very inferior. Inferiority, I feel that my mother is not qualified to become the mother of Obuchi. Because she is too inferior, her mother wants to hide far away. Mom thinks that she will leave sooner or later. Instead of letting Obuchi not give up, it is better to let Obuchi not like it. His mother, my mother was really stupid and stupid at the time."
Lin Qingqing holds his son's face. "Why should you hurt your child in this way? Mom is really stupid."
The little guy looked at her slyly, calling indefinitely, "Mom?"
Yi Zeyan was sitting on the sofa and drinking coffee. When he heard her words, he shook his hand, and the coffee cup slammed into the ground. The white carpet was dyed with a brown color, but he was unaware that the whole person would Like being ridiculed by the thunder, he looked straight to Lin Qingqing and stood up subconsciously.
Lin Qingqings words continued. She held the little sons face and kissed him gently on his forehead. Im sorry, my mother is doing something wrong, my mother is too stupid, sorry for Obuchi, sorry, forgive my mother. Forgive my mother, is it really good? I am really sorry, my mother never loves you. It is the way my mother is wrong. Mom shouldnt always think about staying away from Obuchi. Mom should stay with Obuchi. Sorry, sorry, sorry...
Probably Lin Qingqings raging tears scared him. Xiaoyuan rushed to help her wipe her tears, but couldnt help but cry. Mom dont cry, mother doesnt cry, Obuchi doesnt blame mom.
She remembered that the same time, he walked over to her in a very steady step, and said to her in a childish voice that was unclear: "Ma Ma does not cry, Xiaoyuan loves Ma Ma."
Over and over again, telling her that Obuchi loves Ma Ma, comforting her over and over again, don't cry, thinking that these tears can't be controlled.
She buried her head on her son's shoulder and resisted it, fearing that she would cry out in the next moment.
Yi Zeyan did not know when he was in front of the mother and the child. He looked dignified and looked at the woman with a sly look.
Why did she suddenly say this?
Lin Qingqing noticed the proximity of Yi Zeyan. She slowly looked up and looked at him. He looked at her intently, and his eyes were complicated in his deep eyes.
In fact, she didn't want Yi Zeyan to know that she remembered. They are getting along very well. If he is known, she doesn't know how to face him.
But when I saw Xiaoyuan, I remembered all the past, and she couldnt help it.
He probably already guessed...
She wiped the tears on her face and punched her into a smile, a bitter smile. "Yize, I think about it."