Surviving a Harsh Fantasy with Cheat Items (WN)

Chapter 104.3: Surviving the Harsh Reality, Change

I dont know. I dont think I have that kind of power but it is true that I have been watching you for a long time. I dont have any friends in this world anymore and I always thought that I should hand this over to you, Sawatari-kun. Im running out of time.

Even if you say that

I accepted the orb as if it was pushed on me.

At that moment, a slender, soft hand touched me for a moment and I thought it was a girls hand.

I look at the orb but it really looks like an ordinary marble.

It seems silly to make a wish on this thing but I also feel that it is this kind of trivial thing that caused such a big incident which is out of ordinary.

A jewel that fulfills your wishes. If it were true, it would be a target to be fought over.

Is that why it is in the shape of a marble that can be found everywhere? It is like giving power only to those who believe in it.

In truth, I wished to die.

Kagee, who is usually a person of few words, speaks so eloquently about something so frightening.

She said that she wished she would die with her true and honest heart.

I have always regretted this time.

Why did Kagee want to die? This is the only time I could have asked her.

I dont think I can do anything but I wanted to know at least.

As I remained silent, Kagee continued to talk more eloquently. She even seems to be happy that she finally got what she wanted in the face of death.

I wished for the world to disappear, not me, and thats why this happened. This happened because Im a selfish and disgusting person. Im sorry.

You dont need to apologize to me.

How many people have died just because there were zombies in school?

The way the outbreak was set up, it was obvious that they wanted everyone to die. The way the school was surrounded had a strong sense of malice. There was a good chance that I would have been caught in the middle of it and I would have died.

However, I was not inclined to blame Kagee.

But that doesnt mean that I dont believe her wild story.

Its that I put the girl talking in front of me ahead of the hundreds or thousands of people at school that Ive never spoken to.

If it was an accident, I dont blame her for those who died. I dont think what was happening is all Kagees fault. It could be because of the wishing orb. It is likely to interpret whatever you wish for it in the most malicious way.

Its not because Kagee is evil. After thinking about this, I realized that I was subconsciously defending Kagee.

The development so far has been a typical zombie story. Thats why, knowing the flow of the story, I was able to escape from it. Then, it could be said that Kagee simply wished for the destruction of the world and it will be fulfilled by the zombie outbreak.

In short, the way the wish was granted is full of malice.

However, I cant blame Kagee. On the contrary, I wanted to hide the fact that she was the cause.

Maybe Kagee is right.

Im similar to her. I was enjoying the game of death tag, watching people get eaten, and for the first time in a long time, I felt alive. I was excited by the gushing splashes of blood.

I was like a spectator watching a zombie thing so I could stay cool-headed because I was happy to see my boring everyday life destroyed.

If Kagee is crazy, I probably am too.

However, Sawatari-kun did something about it. You even saved me. That was cool.

The girl who caused this tragedy, the game master, smiled happily as she said that.

I didnt save her. I only cunningly tried to save myself. I was embarrassed to be told that I was cool and wanted to correct her but decided not to.

Since I saved you, you dont have to die, do you?

No, a lot of people died because of me, how can I live with that?

Even if Kagee died, that doesnt mean those people will come back to life.

I was horrified with the words that came out of my mouth.

How could I say some nonsense at a time like this?

If I dont want her to disappear, I only need to say so.

Why cant I just say that honestly?

Kagee only smiles vaguely when she hears my off-the-point words.

I knew best that there was no way those words would reach her.

Anyway, dont say youre going to diecase closed.

At that moment, I heard the sound of loud tandem rotor noises and I looked up out the bus window.

An SDF helicopter formation was heading toward the school, which is probably already overrun by zombies.

It seemed like the SDF were finally moving out of the nearby garrison.

I thought it was too late but considering the procedure for requesting mobilization, I guessed they were rather prompt.

Once the Self Defense Forces moved in, the incident would be brought under control. Everything was over, I thought optimistically.

The bus driven by Mizuki-sensei followed the police evacuation instruction and headed to the nearby central hospital.