Is It Bad That the Main Character’s a Roleplayer?

Episode 327 If only I could (13)

“If you’re not going to drink, can I at least give you a cigarette?”

“Do you smoke too?”

Was Daniel surprised by Meister’s life of doing everything that was bad? I had a moment of intense conflict with his suggestion.

“…Do you have it?”

“uh.”

I’ve already quit smoking for the past few days… but how did I quit smoking?

“…It’s not my body, so it’s okay to smoke carelessly.”

After much consideration, I refused because it wasn’t my body. After all, it was okay to use someone else’s body carelessly, even though it wasn’t mine. Especially since cigarettes are a useless thing.

“I’m fine…”

What, were you awake? Well, after four days it would be time to wake up.

I calmly put aside my lingering feelings for the observant little boy. After all, you can’t smoke in front of your child.

“This is a guy who was dragged into a storm out of nowhere. What can we say about something like this?”

“I won’t say anything in particular, but I don’t think it’s a moral thing to do.”

“Anyway, I’m living a tiresome life for no reason.”

“I don’t think I’m living needlessly tired, but…”

At that time, Daniel supported me. The meister, who was drinking alone, glanced at the two of us and wrinkled his forehead.

“You bastards who will become investigators even without God….”

It was unclear whether it was an insult or a compliment. In one way, it means that he is a bastard, but in another way, it means that he is living a simple and chaste life.

So, Daniel was torn as to whether he should focus on the blasphemous statement that ‘there is no God’ or on the backstory of living with integrity. Well, since it was a place to have pleasant conversations, I eventually agreed and passed it on.

“Oh right. “Take this.”

Anyway, the meister, who looked tired of us, threw something at me. It was a package I had seen before somewhere.

“This is…”

I gradually unwrapped the leather surrounding the outside. Then all kinds of things, including handkerchiefs and headgear, came out.

They were all given to me by those who had helped me, and they were memories that I passed on to Meister when I was running away.

“You still have it.”

“You can’t carelessly throw away other people’s things, even if they are your own, right?”

“…Even though it’s full of pure junk?”

“Well…”

I also found a greenish-white thread bracelet among them.

“It was definitely all unnecessary junk for the trip. But the fact that you continued to allocate space to them even though you didn’t know that doesn’t mean they had emotional value worth wasting that much space on?”

My heart aches at the sight of things that I once thought had disappeared, but somehow returned to me.

“…Maybe so.”

I took a look at them, then fumbled with them one by one and put them in my inventory.

This is what I received from Tatara, this is what was given to me by the hostage and adventurer who were rescued when I was capturing the pirates, and this is what I received from Jakrati….

Give it to the children and organize it when you feel like you have enough space to use it. Even with all that reduction and reduction, there is so much left over.

I quickly adjusted the thread bracelet among the miscellaneous things that seemed to never go away no matter how much I put in them. It was a really strange feeling to receive so many things after saving others.

Rattling.

Then a dagger slipped out from under my knee. widely. Daniel reached out before I could grab it.

“Here it is.”

“thanks.”

I took it and held it properly. Looking at the messed up blade, it doesn’t seem to be the dagger I was using as a weapon.

Where did you get this from?

“Ah…”

The child sighed just as the initials engraved with PB caught his eye.

I felt a sense of déjà vu.

‘…You know this.’

A dagger with initials engraved on it. I was a little confused at first, but after hearing the child’s sighs, I understood. I found this in that broken down cabin.

“what’s the matter?”

“…Is there some problem?”

There must have been something strange because I swept the dagger away with a stern complexion rather than an expression reminiscing. Two people spoke to me.

‘Is it related to me?’

I briefly raised my hand at them and then urged Faust. “…No.” The hesitant child answered with difficulty.

“It’s something you don’t need to worry about.”

‘…If it’s difficult to say right now, you don’t have to say it.’

It’s not something I care about, but it’s something a child might lament about. I knew it intuitively. This is an item that was involved in an incident that the child committed or experienced before I possessed him.

‘However, if you think this may be the start of a problem… you should explain it later, even if briefly. okay?’

As long as this doesn’t cause an immediate problem, there’s no rush to explain. If I don’t explain it and a problem arises, I might get a little angry.

Taking that into account, I gave the child a grace period, and the child slowly spit out each word in a trembling voice.

“no. ‘I’ll tell you right now.’

‘You don’t have to force me to say it.’

“no. “I have to say it now.”

The voice, which had lost its tremor and became a little stronger, fell silent for a moment. “This is something that has a connection with that person.” That person. My gaze lifted reflexively.

“…Why are you doing that?”

I saw Daniel looking serious, wondering if something was wrong with me. I couldn’t bear to continue speaking.

“…If it’s okay with you, can I tell it to you in person?”

‘…What do you mean?’

“Last time… it was like talking directly to Gunther.”

I heard that if you did that once, you lost a month of your life. When he said he was going to do it again, I almost broke the dagger I was holding.

‘I can tell you.’

“i know. But… apologizing through you and apologizing in person are different. I… I want to apologize properly to that person. Ever since then… I’ve always thought about it.”

But the child was quite stubborn. The pulpit was also useless.

‘no.’

“Please.”

‘I’ll tell you.’

“I want to tell you this myself.”

I thought the child would run away as much as possible, but… he was really bold in a matter where all he had to do was lose his life. It was an unbelievable level of courage that it took him a year to tell me the truth.

It was truly an overpowering spirit. I think it would be okay to stay a little behind on things like this.

“…There’s a real problem, right?”

“Is that the devil…?”

“…It wasn’t the devil, but the original owner of the body spoke to me briefly.”

“Then…”

“This item… has something to do with you.”

At my words, Daniel dropped the snack he was holding.

“…You mean me?”

“So he asked me to talk about it… explain what happened back then and apologize in person.”

“Eh. what. Does he switch with you too?”

“…Is that so.”

Daniel’s expression became very complicated. Meister chewed his snacks and drank his drink calmly, as always.

“There is just a problem.”

“…?”

“First of all, there is no disadvantage to me if I listen to that request. “There is no problem with the devil.”

“then…?”

“Instead, the lifespan of the body’s original owner is shortened. “I can’t be sure because I don’t know the exact principle, but… about a month’s worth in two hours.”

“oh.”

“…one month.”

It got more complicated. Daniel squinted his eyes, clenched his fists a few times, and then let out a deep breath. It was an expression that was difficult to put into words.

“So I think it would be better to tell the story in my own way… If you wish, I will take turns. Because this is between you and this being. “What do you want me to do?”

Still, I have to say what I have to say. I looked at his eyes carefully and added a few words. Daniel’s hand snatched Meister’s glass.

Bang, bang, bang.

The bottom of the glass made a loud noise as it hit the armrest of the sofa. Meister, who had suddenly been deprived of alcohol, glanced at him, but no one paid him any attention.

“…I want to hear the story of that day right now, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to listen to it at the expense of other people’s lives.”

“is it.”

“…I also feel uncomfortable using your unrelated words. “I know you’re not guilty, but… I don’t have the confidence to control my emotions while listening to the story.”

“I understand.”

“So just… later. When you go back and he gets his body back. “Please tell me I will hear from you then.”

“Sure.”

Daniel’s expression after emptying his glass of alcohol still looks more relieved than before.

“But…”

‘Don’t pay attention. You can accept this level of consideration. Actually… it’s probably not a crime you committed because you wanted to. You can feel sorry for him, but you don’t have to cling to him too much.’

I also got out of the situation and lifted the snack with much more ease. Since I didn’t want to eat anything heavy, what I chose now was dried fish flakes.

‘…I’m telling you now, but when I told him to atone, I just meant… to sort out your guilt, sort out the situation, and find the courage to speak out. ‘I’m not blaming you for everything that happened.’

「….」

‘It’s my fault for choosing words that are bound to be misunderstood. Sorry. But Faust, I tell you the truth… All the misfortunes we have suffered are not your fault. I told you this last time. ‘Anger is a bastard, it’s hardly your fault.’

Ah, since I don’t know exactly what happened between the two, it’s a bit difficult to give them definite comfort. I recalled the situation of Daniel, whom I knew.

All I know about his past is that he ‘lost his parents to a demon who spoke erratically and wielded black fire.’ At the point where it was said to be going back and forth, I assumed that Wrath and Faust were fighting for dominance and that his parents got caught up and died.

Of course, Faust has no reason to intentionally kill Daniel’s parents, nor is he inclined to do so. So the culprit behind everything is probably anger.

‘So, Faust, you are just one of the victims in the end. That devil is the culprit of everything and you are just one person caught up in it. Don’t come out too low-key to apologize to us. You don’t have to do that. ‘You must have hurt as much as we hurt.’

Based on that hypothesis, I calmly comforted the child. I don’t know if this is right. I’m not a former psychologist, so how would I know? I just hope it has a positive effect.

[Huh. I see… But baby, don’t you know that? Even Ratel can contain his soul for a little while?]

But damn, you crazy angry bastard.

Crack.

Did I get so angry at the moment that I turned the fish into powder? The child who had been listening quietly opened his mouth cautiously.

“…I think you’re cheating again.”

[This is purely out of good will.]

“It’s not trustworthy.”

[…I just brought this up to make Gretchen angry. But it’s true that Ratel can hold a soul for a little while. Shall I swear by your name?]

“If you swear that there will be no side effects.”

[You will be under temporary pressure when you move to Ratel, so there really is nothing to worry about except for a little loss of life. The level of life leaking here is the same as when you go outside as a soul. ah! If you stay in Ratel for more than 3 hours, your soul will keep trying to escape due to your abnormal body. Wouldn’t you say this is a side effect? It’s not a side effect, it’s more of a precaution. So there are no other ‘side effects’. I swear on my name. Now, did you see it?]

“Uhmmm….”

[Ah, why! You even put your name on the line!]

If you look back on your daily actions, you might find the answer to the question of not being trusted. In the meantime, what did you say to make me angry? Mr. Lee… You really are a fucking bastard.

“What is it this time?”

“What is it?”

“…It’s so painful that the devil bastard has to go to hell after 9 years.”

“What did you say?”

“I taught my child bad things.”

“…Shall I sprinkle some holy water on you?”

“…If only the devil bastard could receive holy water, I wouldn’t have a wish.”

The problem is that I am also affected. shit. Daniel and I felt sad at the same time.

「…Can I do that?」

‘…This also shortens your lifespan.’

“It doesn’t leak that much. Also, since it only leaks when moving to a laterel, if it leaks a lot, it will only last for a minute… It’s true…”

No, you don’t think that leaking life itself is a problem. I touched my forehead.

“I’m going to talk really quickly and go in. Please…”

‘…I need to consult with him for a moment.’

If a month’s worth of life is lost, of course it must be prevented, but it is difficult to prevent consumption in minutes. Still, it’s hard to stop it.

After thinking for a while, I explained the situation to Daniel. Daniel also seemed very conflicted about the decrease in consumption from a month to a minute, and even brought out the Rosario.

“God, my broken heart…”

I guess I felt guilty for worrying as soon as the minutes passed. Meister looked at us with a look that said, ‘If that’s all you need, just listen.’

“It’s not even a month, it’s only a matter of minutes, so just give me permission.”

“But that’s a lifespan…”

“It would be inconvenient for him to not apologize for 9 years, so why not just listen? “If it were me, I would waste 10 minutes of my life and confess rather than spend 9 years in frustration.”

“That kind of thing….”

“You frustrated bastards, the stress built up from that will shorten your lifespan even further.”

However, what Meister said was not wrong. So, after much thought, Daniel and I came to a conclusion.

“Please allow it on the condition that you only allow it once today and never again.”

“That’s okay.”

If it’s the Faust I’ve seen, there’s a high possibility that it’s okay to overuse it because it consumes less life. If you were to collect a single particle and call it a mountain, your lifespan may be shortened significantly.

We took that into consideration and proposed a conditional compromise with certain restrictions.

“Yes…”

Faust agreed with a slightly disappointed voice. If there were no restrictions, it would have been a big problem.

“good. “Come in.”

I retrieved the ratel that I had been using as a lantern holder for four days and placed it on the floor. Faust’s soul jumped out of my hand and jumped straight into Ratel.

The surface of the rattel, which was shaped like a rice cake, trembled and soon swelled and took on a single shape.

“…Are you done?”

The boy who looked like he was carved out of marble blinked his pupilless eyes.